近況－辭職

什麼工作都還沒有找到，我就大膽的辭職了。
總結，不成熟的做法，還是太任性的生活著。

我就是任性的自己也受不了！
我就是不愛被牽制，就是不愛被約束，但卻又不夠勇敢，不夠向自由飛去！
自己都快把自己氣死，搞垮！

辭職原因：
好像不是我理想的工作環境，搞到自己身心疲憊，精神受損。
更加不是我的理想人生。不開心的讓我不斷想著，人生不該這樣。
質疑質問自己千萬遍是不是我的心態很不正確？但是我找不找答案，所以選擇離開去尋找答案。

我不管了，管太多也走不下去，就走下去吧！
就是不想成天羨慕著這個那個，如果這個那個，或許當時這個那個！
我不要！

希望能把動力給找回來！

火！

實在火大了
去你的 咳來咳去都不會好
你是要我怎樣
什麼住處 什麼工作處
空氣骯臟的要命
去你的 做好準備請了半天假
準備再去看醫生 卻請我去專科預約
已經擔心得要命 上網來忘記憂慮
要充個電腦電 連插座都燒壞去
這什麼霉 如此黑
黑過空氣！

我真的傷心了，難過了，想哭了，卻逃不走。。

F!

Fxck! (Excuse my expression)

I did a great mistake in that design.
I enlarged the photos!!
It can only reduce but i enlarge it to the max!!

My mood to work hard totally gone!
(I know that is avoiding problem.)
And then, because of my great mistake, i delayed the deadline to pass the client another visuals.
I already disappointed that time when i watched the time passed by slowly because of the computer problem.
I keep saying Fxxx Fxxx Fxxx in my mind while i was transferring or downloading the files that sent by clients.
The stupid computer memory not even enough for me to download 7 tiff files!
Then, I had to keep transferring those files to another hard disc!!
From 2.15pm o'clock i started to download and moving files,  i was thinking may be i still have time to rush out the another 3 visuals after 2.30pm.
Who knows? It until 4.30pm i only finished transferring and start doing!
Well, I totally gave up and waiting if my boss wanna scold me because i delayed the deadline on my own..

At the end, i sent the visuals to the client by 6pm instead of the time given 3pm.
Just pissed off with the company computer system!
Cant they change to good and faster system?
Everything in rush but the 'old' computer drag our time while transferring or saving or converting!
The part that i think even worst is the softwares' version!
You need me to handle this job but my computer does not have the software and i need to borrow here and there from colleagues.
Well, they have their jobs too!

I messed up this and that ads at the end.
Fxxx again.

9pm now, i read the work's email and Fxxx the client!
Could you please check 1st before say that i jumbled up your ads?
I dont think it could be happened!
I just copy and paste the ex-colleagues work!
Although boss has clarified for me, when i see the way she email and disrespect me, allow me, WTF?!

I need to find another word to replace F.
It is not good that always mention that word.

Sick again

At the end, I am sick again!
Damn it!!

I was damn tired last week and rest not enough!
Back home and sleep too late!
I thought i can stand for it until this weekend then i can rest again.

I woke up yesterday morning with shoulder-ache.
Then started not feeling well when working.
Back home and had a panadol to reduce my headache and try to stop myself from gettting sick.
No use! I thought to MC today so i can rest well before it getting serious.
I can't! cause I have deadlines again today :((

I want some sleep!!

ipod shuffle

My gift!
An ipod Shuffle.
It was hilarious when my bf told me he found that my old cheap mp3 is annoying with some sounds in it.
He pity me that how could i use that to play song?
Then we laughed!
Thank you :目

The next gift that i want to give myself is Ipad!
Money money money~ Please come come!

I cut my hair today.
I feel fresh!