Exhausted

Feel like different from last time.
I used to finish assignment on time or may be earlier.
Now I seem like always stop by something. Damn it.
There must be the reason that lecturer guided us that way.
I don’t like to hear that “I think that is not related, not necessary to finish this part that part first”.
At last? Anything also cannot be done.
Damn hate this kind of feeling.
If we can finish it early then we can check on those answers we can do it better. May be I have too many complaint.

I attended Pd class today.
Feel happy that Ming said that I handle my previous typo assignments quite good.
I was so excited to do the clip art design.
After having copy writing lesson, I feel exhausted to do any design.
I almost fainted-.-''
now I just REALISE that e question sheet is to narrow down our thinking to reality!
We were going too far.
I feel like had been through a war after attended copy writing lesson.
Anyway I really learnt a lot from Louise today!

大大.

心情突然不是很好=(
要生日了,知道我的生日願望是甚麼嗎?
是有點奇怪的願望.
我想要年齡大過我的朋友.(同年也算)
我不要年齡小過我的朋友.
已經足夠了.
有些祇能是同學的程度而已.
我不要是個姐姐=(
年齡大過我的朋友,手指數數都數完了.
好想念愛麗絲,Irene,joey(不要想念irving.昨天msns好像打發我,算!哼!)
好想念和愛麗絲姐姐在一起的時候,教我許多東西,也喜歡和joey一起的時候,都是你們在教我事情.
還特地帶我去見識clubbing.我們一起去走走,吃吃.
可以再來,不再約束,盡情的和你們去玩.
喜歡國龍叫我鳳鳳.
喜歡eric叫我小鳳.(可惜這人已經消失在我的周圍,真的可惜!)
喜歡這一些你們對我的親切.
最算我的親愛的同學快快的叫我'崔ei鳳',我都很很很想念.
'期待你的愛'傳進耳里,讓我更加的想念在新加坡的時候了.
那是我最後一次享受和同齡以上的朋友在一起了.
真的很想念.
打著打著,難過起來了,還想流淚呢.
想念,想念,想念!
我想要這一些的疼愛=(
我想要還是以前那個可愛被疼愛的我.(我的意思不是說自己很可愛的可愛)
啊!怎麼連這首'復刻回忆'都來找我啊=(
全都都是屬於我是小輩份的時候的歌曲=.=
好想要被人家摸摸頭的感覺='(
我不要愛,要被愛!
自私啊,我不知道!
我要大朋友!

好了,夠了吧,回到原地,帶著因為思緒,因為音樂弄down的心情去睡覺吧.
前幾天的夢,才引發我這樣的心情.
淺意識開始發出反抗的聲音了嗎?
好了.不想不想了.已經說完就好了.
要繼續努力,不能被懶惰的一部分慢慢的佔據了我.

可是...她還是想要鬧彆扭.
怎麼辦=(

Tired week

I am so tired this week.
Everyday have to wake up early for school and assignments.
Because my laziness and I didn’t get enough sleep.
I decided to sleep at 9.30 tonight and wake up at 5 tomorrow for research.
I cannot stand it anymore.
My name card design got rejected today, feel upset.
I thought to redo tonight.
I not yet start to sketch the packaging design for the tissue, copy writing device’s problem not solve yet, and mind map and mood board for PD also not start to do yet! Oh my god! Still I went for karaoke today! But it does help on relax my mind!
Going to take a shower and go to bath later.
Tomorrow still have to wake up early go to kojadi, look for timberland’s shop and go back to college have copy writing discussion.
This week is full of tiredness.

Nostalgia

When I was enjoying my holiday at my home, I dug out much stuff that recalled many memories back to the days. Due to the caveman lifestyle while I am home, so I post this after I came to KL.

When I study at KL my sister already asked for a name card and flyer design for her opening workshop in July. Well, coincidently I got an assignment to redesign others name card. I took the chance to design my sister’s name card and got my dear lecturer to prove it! I was glad when CJ told me that name card look good. But I knew that what are the comments (bad) my sis going to give. I was still excited to show her the name card. Although I knew the ending, yet the disappointment filled my heart. I did show her the other name card that I designed as well. Well, I don’t understand that why she thinks that the other card is better than hers. They are both my design! Alright, I treat this as an opportunity to convince my customers in the future. Unfortunately I failed. I did flyers and signboard for her too, but she rejected the ideas and she still saying that I didn’t do that kind of design for her after she had seen my college artwork. Hmmmm… what should I do? I did tell her that designs vary on different things. At last I concede from what I insist of. I mind if they give the other designers to design on my work. Not because of I am good, but I can tell how my design will become after the designer accepts that business from my sister. I got the thought of giving up designing for her. Cause they cannot accept what I am doing. I do not want anyone to criticize on my work nor laugh on it coz I have my pride. May be I am just not that good.

I dug out many things that recall of my teenage memories while helping my father to look for something. I think I am a good collector. Haha. I can keep things in good condition for years. This make me cannot understand how can my nephews ‘destroy’ the things easily. I remembered that I got a bicycle from my mother and I kept it good for few years. When it turned into my nephew’s hand, it was either spoiled or stolen after a few months if I wasn’t mistaken. I saw the kukumalu brand coins bag that I bought when I was 16 years old and the pouch for the Pantech cell phone, Eric, Nini and her sis cross my mind. I saw the watch as a class rep present gifted by Ah Sir. The watch and key chains (souvenirs form Thailand) gifted by wanyi. I gave one to my cute nephew. A decorate birthday bear from Daren. My favorite drama acted by Takeshi Kaneshiro and Kyoko Fukada. Two Super Junior’s album I bought in SG last 2 years. The Angela Zhang’s album from Ying Chien and Franky Fong! New Year cards from my classmates. And I found the Japanese notes with my beautiful handwriting covered with my favorite color sheets!!

I like the nostalgic feelings.