可愛媽媽

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我的如果s

今天得知她婆婆也如此嚴重了.
我沒有為我們都長大了而開心,我真得為他們而老了而難過.
真的是多少日子不勝唏噓.
有時候,經歷了,才知道戲是演得那麼真.
我喜歡看戲!

我一直以來都很好奇古人的生活.
甚至想睡個覺醒來就是電視劇裡常看到的古時候.
古人所說的話真的很有意思.

樹欲靜而風不止,子欲養而親不在.
意思是勸大家重視親情hor1?
應該在幼稚園,一年級就學了.
學甚麼科學地方研究?
這些都還不會,學那些有什麼用.
做人基本的都沒學到,卻去學世界的大學問?

贊同欣傑說的,現在的孩子甚麼都有,除了童真.
孩子還是可愛的好.

我是多麼的想追回以前的時光.
現在所學習到的,都想用在以前以前.

有時候,和同學們一起找'獵'泊車位子,看見1個R字,想用clone stamp去擦掉.
有時候,草稿畫到離譜了,想一直按著crtl+Z取回之前的.
有時候,事情都想new一個layer來做新的嘗試,不行就delete.

如果,都能用在生活上就好了.

十一月十九號

十一月十九號 晴天

尋晚情況有d緊張.
令我更加唔鍾意我家姐個女.
識小小扮大代表.車!

好采,之後都冇咩事喇.
但係我地大家仲需要好擔心.

今日一次過睇左好多日既報紙.
爸爸仲拎左1d比較新既比我.

我係度諗,呢個係電視劇既台詞抑或係內心話?



我又開始generate questions and answers.

爸爸突然叫我去劈柴.
又要整到身水身汗喇 :(
但係好開心我既動作竟然令爸爸笑 ~.~
真係有d後悔冇拎到DSLR返黎.
今日係我第一次想將某d情景影低.
我劈一陣就冇力喇,真係冇用,幫唔上忙 :(

去完銀行又要去H喇.
趕返黎後既某個動作又令爸爸笑喇 :P

去到H,又有另外一個驚嚇喇.
我好想快d返吉隆坡,我唔想受到咁多驚嚇!
時間好難過,難捱.
最後終於冇咩事喇.
但係我一直都好擔心.
原來想像同事實真係好唔同.
沒有遇上,沒有真正既感覺.

呢次要返hometown前仲諗好要享受咩美食.
人算不如天算-.-
我想要食既冇一樣食到 :(
我最想最想要既小蛋糕竟然冇賣!!
我去左3日3日都冇賣 T_T
好失望.....

如果唔係有兩個大bag,我一定買個大既返去!

十一月十八號

十一月十八號 晴天

好似平時一樣,係度賴床.
爸爸返黎喇,我開時stanby.
之後一起去H.
OH, MY, GOD!(去完H既總結)
跟住又開始有問題出現.

釋迦摩尼究竟係點參透d道理?
到底我既諗法係岩定係錯?
究竟我係唔係人?
人是甚麼東西?
離開等於解脫?
難道係因果循環?
會唔會太過殘忍?
放手,會唔會好d?
一切一切對我黎講真係太殘忍喇:(
如果,一切都有如果既話,就真係太好喇:(((

今日爸爸好突然咁係我面前拎起條生魚丟係地下講:"咁就可以喇"
嚇死我!!我即刻摀住耳朵!!!

我又想問釋迦牟尼因果循環係點計架?
有沒有方程式?

人生要成功也難,放棄也難.
人生有太多唔明喇.

十一月十七號

十一月十七號 雨天 (義海豪情_晴晴把聲)

我已經好耐冇返屋企喇.
趁住呢次既連日假期回家,順便比家姐簽ㄧ簽d文件.
帶左開心的心情回家.

我原本以為會過得很高興.
點知?!
竟然!!!!
一個一個驚嚇係度等住我:(
我差d受唔住第一個驚嚇.
驚嚇程度10/10
第一次感受到晴天霹靂的感覺.
回想起真係好似做戲咁有閃電響雷的情景.
呢個真係我食到咁大個女第一次見到咁恐怖既事.
我不斷想起果件事.
每一次想起,我都好想好想我可以好似釋迦摩尼咁參透因果循環,生老病死的道理.
上天係善良定係殘忍?
而我係太過理智定係冷血?

我同我的屋企人相比,我真係可以話係冇用的人:(
我冇膽去面對.我好害怕.
我好想好大聲咁講:我不敢!
想起爸爸姊姊的辛苦,我真係甚麼都不是:(

4

3

During midterm i posted my 2d application here.
This time I don’t have the confidence to show the final for 2d.
So skip it.

At the 14th week Wednesday we were very busy.
Some of us had our "breakfast + lunch" at 3 o'clock at the same time also rushed for the print out work for the coming presentation.

My group members and I slept at 4 and woke up at 6.30.

It was killing us.

We don’t even have time to do revision for the production test which was in the early morning on Wednesday.

I just read through the notes once and then entered to the examination hall.

Of course I know my result for the test well.

I didn’t expect to get good result for production anymore.

After the test we went to the classroom and arrange for our artwork of Promotional Design.

I was the last one to present my work.

It was getting nervous while I was listening to the comments given by lecturers to my classmates.

It came to my turn.

I can feel my heart beating fast when waiting for the comments from lecturers.

I felt relief when lecturer said that it was related to my concept and it was good but just that the paper selection made the works feel odd.

I feel happy that one of the lecturers likes my T-shirt elements!

After the PD presentation we rushed for the Copy writing presentation.

I was satisfied with the things we did but it was only the copy is unsatisfied.

I wished that we have more time to do the copy.

It was alright still we have a “neat execution” from course director.

2

This is my packaging design.

I team up with SzeYee to do the research part.

At the first we were choosing Godiva but then considered for the cost for the gold color we changed to Cadbury at last.

we have trouble when we were doing the research part of competitor.

Finally we were entered to the sketches part.

She did fresh design while i did vintage design.

i challenge vintage design because i never done this kind of design before.

At the point of the time i was also worrying that i cannot accomplish it.

I was stucked for many weeks on the patterns.

Deanie also worried and nagged on the idea that i chose to apply for the design which is art nouveau.

i was upset and worry cannot pass up on time.

I decided to have one day free only for packaging assignment.

EVENTUALLY i came out 1 pattern that i satisfied a lot!

the pattern that i couldnt design before

i was indeed excited when deanie proved it and said that "you already got the sense of view, apply the same method for different flavors bars".

at the same day she complimented on the layout of my leaflet and told me that i got full mark for my report of visiting a printing shop.

WOW! it feels good!

Engston also spot that i am going smooth on everything at the same time after i clear my problem!

hehe...feel excited too while i recall back the scene :)

Too much wanna say about my Packaging.

Come to the final day for presentation, i was so down because i was overconfident while i printed for my actual mock up.

i didn't realize there are many mistakes!!

At least i picked something up from the mistakes.

I will take care of it next time!

1

Finally all final assignment passed.

Although it is tough, I learnt a lot from the progress.

It was enjoyable.

I am so happy when I overcame the obstacles, when I solved the problems and when I did little mistakes even though all are tiring in the progress.

I feel my life!

I feel happy getting along with some of my classmates.

They are awesome!

We learn together, we play together; we go through tiredness together and we have beneficial competitions between ourselves.

We also face same problem together that people around us cannot understand what we were busying for our study life and why should we spent so much money.

That is because we are classmates.

Those are memorable moments.

Some of us start watching the “Project Runway” because of Engston’s influence.

He is a special guy for me. He likes building a lot.

This is a good program for us.

What I think is we need to learn from that program how western people give comment to one another.

How they generate their concept, idea, opinion and strong character on their designs.

People among us do not know how to give comment besides a word “okay” in many things.

Western people can keep improving because they give and receive I think we lack of these.

Some people are scared to listen to the comment that might be hurtful or they might distort the meaning of people’s comments.

Well, maybe they have been thinking too much.

“May be I am not creative enough to be a designer, but I can have the better way on seeing things.”

“Marks are not important, what you’ve learnt is important.”

These are what I got from lecturers.

I love my current life!

2D application

the most satisfied art piece =p

Postcard

Own character postcard design. not very good =(

Packaging of tissue

Redesign on the packaging of SCOTT green & yellow colors tissue.

CW ads

Im not satisfied with this artwork! will work hard for the 2nd assginment with new team members~.~v

累累得心情

昨天,就這樣普普通通得過了我的生日.
很感謝我一直以來都在欺負他的niG七早八早起來特地炸hotdog.
感謝她們得特別的idea.
收到舊同事的祝福特別開心.可能很想念他們的原因.
很想和你們在一起 =(
想念你們對我的好 =(

我,好想要有"屬於"我的東西.
我好羨慕.我看著,感覺著,幻想著, 我都在羨慕. 我都在想要.
這,好不開心的感覺.

最近因為壓力所以不是很開心,我需要很大很大的"衝擊力"來撞開我的不開心.
昨天的生日,總結就是讓我意識到生日不生日,時間就是時間,日子就是日子,沒有甚麼特別.
只是一直得在趕功課.

好在早上的一封email讓我感覺鬆了口氣.
我這幾天真得很想有一個很大的空間讓我待著.
那里除了一張大桌子,我的功課,參考書,甚麼都不需要有.
不要有聲音,不要有人.
暫時我好想甚麼都聽不見.

思儀說我太執著.
都自己扛著.
我不想.因為我不放心.
雖然我不厲害,但我也不想交給說"隨便做就行"的人.
我有份的東西我就不能看見它被糟塌.
因為我有付出我的努力我的心機.
有心,就會自己要求.
沒有心,就只會等待人家的吩咐.
絕對不能成為這樣的人!
希望我能達到我的期望.
我的期望不大的.

可是因為時間的關係,我真的覺得好累.
可是也因為時間,我很開心終於要結束,我能自己選擇了.
哈哈.

這幾天令我頓悟了,不管甚麼,要去嘗試!
每一樣的事物都有它的美麗!
我不要再憑直覺憑感覺了.
我一定能做到!
我是佩鳳!

有人說我很勤力.
哈.有時候吧.我也可以是很懶惰的!
我沒有自己的角色.
我可以做很多不同的事情.
這不好吧.
或許還不會欣賞自己.

好累...想到明天後天的時間,就超想要有那個大空間.
不想甚麼都擠擠的.

我想要!我想要那樣!我不想要這樣,我不想要這個!雖然沒有不好.但是我想要我想要的!
=(

還不是. =(

Exhausted

Feel like different from last time.
I used to finish assignment on time or may be earlier.
Now I seem like always stop by something. Damn it.
There must be the reason that lecturer guided us that way.
I don’t like to hear that “I think that is not related, not necessary to finish this part that part first”.
At last? Anything also cannot be done.
Damn hate this kind of feeling.
If we can finish it early then we can check on those answers we can do it better. May be I have too many complaint.

I attended Pd class today.
Feel happy that Ming said that I handle my previous typo assignments quite good.
I was so excited to do the clip art design.
After having copy writing lesson, I feel exhausted to do any design.
I almost fainted-.-''
now I just REALISE that e question sheet is to narrow down our thinking to reality!
We were going too far.
I feel like had been through a war after attended copy writing lesson.
Anyway I really learnt a lot from Louise today!

大大.

心情突然不是很好=(
要生日了,知道我的生日願望是甚麼嗎?
是有點奇怪的願望.
我想要年齡大過我的朋友.(同年也算)
我不要年齡小過我的朋友.
已經足夠了.
有些祇能是同學的程度而已.
我不要是個姐姐=(
年齡大過我的朋友,手指數數都數完了.
好想念愛麗絲,Irene,joey(不要想念irving.昨天msns好像打發我,算!哼!)
好想念和愛麗絲姐姐在一起的時候,教我許多東西,也喜歡和joey一起的時候,都是你們在教我事情.
還特地帶我去見識clubbing.我們一起去走走,吃吃.
可以再來,不再約束,盡情的和你們去玩.
喜歡國龍叫我鳳鳳.
喜歡eric叫我小鳳.(可惜這人已經消失在我的周圍,真的可惜!)
喜歡這一些你們對我的親切.
最算我的親愛的同學快快的叫我'崔ei鳳',我都很很很想念.
'期待你的愛'傳進耳里,讓我更加的想念在新加坡的時候了.
那是我最後一次享受和同齡以上的朋友在一起了.
真的很想念.
打著打著,難過起來了,還想流淚呢.
想念,想念,想念!
我想要這一些的疼愛=(
我想要還是以前那個可愛被疼愛的我.(我的意思不是說自己很可愛的可愛)
啊!怎麼連這首'復刻回忆'都來找我啊=(
全都都是屬於我是小輩份的時候的歌曲=.=
好想要被人家摸摸頭的感覺='(
我不要愛,要被愛!
自私啊,我不知道!
我要大朋友!

好了,夠了吧,回到原地,帶著因為思緒,因為音樂弄down的心情去睡覺吧.
前幾天的夢,才引發我這樣的心情.
淺意識開始發出反抗的聲音了嗎?
好了.不想不想了.已經說完就好了.
要繼續努力,不能被懶惰的一部分慢慢的佔據了我.

可是...她還是想要鬧彆扭.
怎麼辦=(

Tired week

I am so tired this week.
Everyday have to wake up early for school and assignments.
Because my laziness and I didn’t get enough sleep.
I decided to sleep at 9.30 tonight and wake up at 5 tomorrow for research.
I cannot stand it anymore.
My name card design got rejected today, feel upset.
I thought to redo tonight.
I not yet start to sketch the packaging design for the tissue, copy writing device’s problem not solve yet, and mind map and mood board for PD also not start to do yet! Oh my god! Still I went for karaoke today! But it does help on relax my mind!
Going to take a shower and go to bath later.
Tomorrow still have to wake up early go to kojadi, look for timberland’s shop and go back to college have copy writing discussion.
This week is full of tiredness.

Nostalgia

When I was enjoying my holiday at my home, I dug out much stuff that recalled many memories back to the days. Due to the caveman lifestyle while I am home, so I post this after I came to KL.

When I study at KL my sister already asked for a name card and flyer design for her opening workshop in July. Well, coincidently I got an assignment to redesign others name card. I took the chance to design my sister’s name card and got my dear lecturer to prove it! I was glad when CJ told me that name card look good. But I knew that what are the comments (bad) my sis going to give. I was still excited to show her the name card. Although I knew the ending, yet the disappointment filled my heart. I did show her the other name card that I designed as well. Well, I don’t understand that why she thinks that the other card is better than hers. They are both my design! Alright, I treat this as an opportunity to convince my customers in the future. Unfortunately I failed. I did flyers and signboard for her too, but she rejected the ideas and she still saying that I didn’t do that kind of design for her after she had seen my college artwork. Hmmmm… what should I do? I did tell her that designs vary on different things. At last I concede from what I insist of. I mind if they give the other designers to design on my work. Not because of I am good, but I can tell how my design will become after the designer accepts that business from my sister. I got the thought of giving up designing for her. Cause they cannot accept what I am doing. I do not want anyone to criticize on my work nor laugh on it coz I have my pride. May be I am just not that good.

I dug out many things that recall of my teenage memories while helping my father to look for something. I think I am a good collector. Haha. I can keep things in good condition for years. This make me cannot understand how can my nephews ‘destroy’ the things easily. I remembered that I got a bicycle from my mother and I kept it good for few years. When it turned into my nephew’s hand, it was either spoiled or stolen after a few months if I wasn’t mistaken. I saw the kukumalu brand coins bag that I bought when I was 16 years old and the pouch for the Pantech cell phone, Eric, Nini and her sis cross my mind. I saw the watch as a class rep present gifted by Ah Sir. The watch and key chains (souvenirs form Thailand) gifted by wanyi. I gave one to my cute nephew. A decorate birthday bear from Daren. My favorite drama acted by Takeshi Kaneshiro and Kyoko Fukada. Two Super Junior’s album I bought in SG last 2 years. The Angela Zhang’s album from Ying Chien and Franky Fong! New Year cards from my classmates. And I found the Japanese notes with my beautiful handwriting covered with my favorite color sheets!!

I like the nostalgic feelings.

thank u mini man

Just review one of the previous posts.
Three of my typography posters got selected by lecturer as references to juniors.
Would it be shown as good or bad references?
It feels consoling although I am not satisfied with the results.
I am trying my best to do my next typo assignment.
I face many difficulties now and I almost want to give up.
I don’t even have any mood to choose the paper for the book already, but mini man keep encouraging me.
Thank you.

ignorance

i am useless.
i am ignorant.

i wish to improve.
if i got money i could buy many books to increase my knowledge.
well, my pocket money is not allowing me to buy those books.
because every book is above 100.
i want to borrow book from the school library.
but my school is too small and the books is limited to lend.
besides those useful books cannot lend out is due to some people would not take good care of it.

I AM IGNORANT!!

why the number of library is limited in our country.
why i did not appreaciate the time when i was in singapore??
why i did not visit the library just nearby my place that time??

I DESERVED IT! I AM IGNORANT!

pirated stitch

CdCover for Digital Art..

today we got our poster of history of GD back.
i got 78%.
i thought i can get higher than 78.
the comments are good and nice still cannot get 80 plus-.-
hmm...gambate ne...

想念想念...

最近都在想念一些人...
當穿著formal wear present的時候,就想起愛莉絲,joey.
想起以前和他們下班後一起去逛逛,吃東西的時候.
今天花些時間在電腦前,想起以前和peiwen,kylie&渣一起玩online game的時候...
還想和他們一起玩玩online game...
想起以前和他們傳戲傳歌曲,傳遊戲,聊天...
自從在新加坡有段時間沒有接觸到網絡開始,我已經不再時常on msn了...
已經不再玩msn了...
有時候,難得有空,在線上遇見她們想聊聊的時候,網絡問題就中斷了我們的對話...
有時候要幾小時後才能上線.
不知道會不會誤會我呢...
都不知道是我運氣背還是國家的問題.
還有也想念和ashley san一起去學日文的時候...
好想再和她一起學習......
最近,真的很想念你們!
不想,看見只會既妒,只會無聊,成天抱怨些關心不關心的,還需要別人督促的,還有不付出卻期待一大堆回報的人.
我來的時機錯了...
我錯過了應該遇見的....
想念想念...

Final Artworkss

(Typography_Wonders Of Food)

(Typography_Wonders Of Food)

(Typography_Roots Of Typography)

(History Of GD_ITS Style)

Today finished all presentation.
i was too confidence on myself. My speech is not good enough...
i will improve it next time.
its lucky i still got a good comment from angel.
not bad. gambate ne!!

affected mood

I wonder if the drama’s ending had affected my mood.
When I wake up this morning I felt sad.
This morning I discovered two black color spiders, and the basin is blocked. These affected my mood greater. After shower, I went down and wait for my housemate to go to school.
Well, this scene made my mood got worse.
The living room is very messy.
I felt boring with those familiar situations when I was at the printing shop with my classmates nearby my college.
I saw how they were rushing at last minutes for the assignments.
I saw how someone complained, nagged about his study.
I know sometimes we might not complete our assignment on time because we are out of idea.
I can understand.
But what I cannot understand is why people complain as they don’t give their efforts on their works.
In class, some people talked loud about their other subjects’ work when the lecturer was giving talk.
Sigh…
I really wish to have classmates like what lecturer told when he studied overseas.
I wish to have motivated classmates. I wish to have classmates that are willing to share their knowledge. Be serious while learning, enjoy while playing.
I need improvement.
Sigh, they still need people to push on their work, take care of their stuff.
They always upset that nobody concern about them.
What the…
I don’t have responsibility to take care of your thing!
I passed to you when I bought for you, that’s end of my responsibility!
You have passed 18 years old don’t you know how to take care of just 2 sheets of papers?
And what have you done for your assignment before? How come you seem like you don’t have any memories about it?
What were you doing?

Twisting feelings in ME

Today is our applied design final presentation.
It feels good when I see all classmates’ works in the class.
It is really touching when I see the artworks that passed through 14th weeks come out finally.
It feels happy and pleased when someone approbates your work.
I was nervous when Ena came to me.
I almost cry when I heard what she said.
Ena:”nice,interesting,looks professional, and time management is good, research is good.”
I was thinking that a good designer can come out an idea without seeing the other works.
Now I realized is wrong.
I told Ena what I was thinking she replied ‘NO’
She said to come out a good work you have to see other works how good other people work how they played with the composition and color combination!
Finally I came out with my own artwork T_T
There is no reason when Ena said that my time management is good I think of Irving.
He really taught me a lot.
Yes!! Happy and satisfied with lecturer praises!!
THANK YOU THANK YOU ^^v